Saturday, January 24, 2015

Ra-ra girl power, or something like that

It's really amazing, but I finally reached a breaking point. I didn't think it existed. Not for you and me.

I thought you could continue to mistreat me forever and I'd still love you. But I think I was underestimating myself.

The truth is that I've reached a real moment of clarity. And I've realized I no longer want to feel bad for myself. I've realized that being able to feel passionate, grand things is an ability that I have and that you lack. You will never feel the pain I do — it's true — but you will also never feel the happiness these crazy emotions once allowed me. Sure, I'm hurt. I now understand that you never cared that you hurt me. But I feel worse for you than for myself.

I've realized that you should only be so lucky to be with a (nice, intelligent, funny) person that cared for you as much as I did. And I deserve more than an asshole that's terrified of feeling something he can't explain with a mathematical equation.

I may have lost something today. But you lose, period.

Friday, January 23, 2015

The truth is that

You're like a lost puppy in a sea of emotions you can't rationalize away